I don't know where to begin ... I am happy genuinely smiling ... Gosh! something that I had to pretend to be a few weeks ago. I joined Alabastron Renewing Self Sn 26 after I found myself in a rut feeling stuck resentful sooo angry waah not sleeping loosing appetite wanting to be alone, just wallowing blaming everyone and God and several failed suicidal attempt ... All in the name of seeking attention ... I had sought help from church friends books websites, 'kama ningekuwa na number ya mchawi mmmmh' ...... (I wished I had a witchdoctor's phone number)

Everything got to this level when I was with my current ex- boyfriend. But what i did not know or rather tried to ignore and hide was my past [...]

When I started the Alabastron Renewing Self program (season 25) in October 2015 it was because my mum had told me that it would change my life and it was just what I needed to take the next major step (she had already done the program).
It wasn’t long before I realized I had made the best decision.

I had heard about Alabastron in 2010 from a colleague who had attended the program, I didn’t give it much thought and I wasn’t interested in it then.

I wake up in the morning one day and I look at myself in the mirror and that small voice inside me says, Look at you, how did you end up here, this wasn’t your life story, whose life are you living?

Before I did the Renewing Self Program of Alabastron, I felt like my life was spinning round in circles. I had the same feeling of why am I doing this? every morning I woke up and went to work. I sat angry in traffic. I only went to work because bills needed to be paid for anyway. I partied on the weekend and had the same hangover.