Transformation Stories

What women who have done alabastron have to say

I Was Full Of Drama But Now Iam Happy ...Genuinely Happy

I don’t know where to begin ... I am happy genuinely smiling ... Gosh! something that I had to pretend to be a few weeks ago. I joined Alabastron Renewing Self Sn 26 after I found myself in a rut feeling stuck resentful sooo angry waah not sleeping loosing appetite wanting to be alone, just wallowing blaming everyone and God and several failed suicidal attempt ... All in the name of seeking attention ... I had sought help from church friends books websites, ‘kama ningekuwa na number ya mchawi mmmmh’ .... (I wished I had a witchdoctor’s phone number).


Everything got to this level when I was with my current ex- boyfriend. But what i did not know or rather tried to ignore and hide was my past..... I got involved with my current ex- boyfriend just barely 1 month after a 4years relationship. My current ex-boyfriend got it rough from me anytime I felt like not in control of things, I blew up fireworks. 'Where were you, who were you with, why didn't you tell me where you were going, why don’t you buy me this, why don’t we go out, why don’t u bring me flowers??? I threw punches on him (never mind I am petite hahahaha "kujifanya ndume" (just pretending to be brave)


I have now come to realize where all this was coming from. ...
My first love cheated on me with my friend and when I found out barely 8months into the relationship I "forgave" and "forgot". I continued being the best girlfriend. I would however sneer at the girl every time I met her.   My current ex-boyfriend got it rough from me anytime I felt like not in control of things, I blew up fireworks. 'Where were you, who were you with, why didn't you tell me where you were going, why don’t you buy me this, why don’t we go out, why don’t u bring me flowers??? I threw punches on him (never mind I am petite hahahaha "kujifanya ndume" (just pretending to be brave) I even hatched out a plan to have her mauled by dogs. Thank God the plan wasn’t put into action. Every time something bad or something I didn’t like was done to I would refer back to the incidence. I told myself I wasn’t good enough, I was ugly, un-wise, I was shallow naive coward, she was a bitch ... And men are all the same... So in the 5th year, tit for tat was at its best....
And I did with no remorse.
I carried all this with me. If only it was a sack of nyanyas (tomatoes) heee. I would bear a stench. I did everything possible to feel superior, dominating, bigger, and mightier but the worst part was later I would feel whorish, cheap, unworthy, yucky...


I joined Alabastron thinking it was another self-help group. My friend had told me about it but I was like I’m good ( I pretended to be alright) I gave excuses such as I am too far they should bring a class to Nakuru.
Actually I had called the Alabastron Office in January 2016 and when the call was picked I said my name and started saying how things are bad I’m suicidal and I need help...   I joined Alabastron thinking it was another self-help group. My friend had told me about it but I was like I’m good ( I pretended to be alright) I gave excuses such as I am too far they should bring a class to Nakuru. Then I was told they were thinking of bringing a class to Nakuru but they needed to find more people... I said ok but in my head I thought ‘which more people? I’m here. I need your attention now. Little did I know as soon as they had gotten my number I started receiving their messages. At first I was irritated but I did finally enroll for the classes in Nairobi. when I started class, the class and went on to be equipped with tools, I was shocked at how many people I had issues with, even some who had no clue. I decided this has to work... And now I’m consciously practicing 1st Corinthians13
I’m happy I smile genuinely
I know what I want and no settling for less
I trust and believe in God


I am able to control my anger and in situations I find myself almost cracking I repeat and say to me ‘Jacky is not easily angered...’ I now have a voice and can say no
  The best of all has been learning to love me for me. Best thing that ever happened to me ... I don’t have to seek love from another human being. It’s found in God. And I have come to realize there are good men out there The best of all has been learning to love me for me. Best thing that ever happened to me ... I don’t have to seek love from another human being. It’s found in God. It’s not all rosy and falling back happens but now have the courage to lift myself up , stand tall and move ahead .....I have no regret and I wish I had done this earlier because I believe I would be quite ahead today.

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