How Changing My Perspective in Life Influenced My Direction
Hi, you can call me CWN. I am at that stage in life where I feel I had started panicking about not finding anyone I felt I could get seriously involved with. Finding that partner to do life and love with seemed all so elusive. I was disillusioned and reeling from the hurt of past romantic involvements, that to me seemed held the promise of a future, but I soon found out how mistaken I was. One thing to know about me, is that I love with all my heart, infact some would say I love too intensely and that I trust too blindly. I had been sharing these experiences with my dear friend SN. SN had been through the Alabastron Renewing Self programme. I told her how lonely I felt and how unfruitful the search for love had been so far. I felt that at 37 years of age, I wanted to share the rest of my life with somebody special. As I introspected about my love life, I also realized that I was actually discontented about many aspects of my life. Between the hurt and the disillusionment, I really was not sure what to do. In talking to my friend, SN, she told me about Alabastron Network Trust’s programme Renewing Self. I had come across Alabastron in passing on social media, but learning that my dear friend had walked the journey, helped me gain a better understanding about the ministry and convinced me to participate. I am so glad I did.
Before participating in the Alabastron Renewing Self Programme I had misgivings about my career and the path I was going in. Before participating in the Alabastron Renewing Self Programme I had misgivings about my career and the path I was going in. These feelings added to the disenchantment I had about my life. One of my deepest desires is to settle down happily and have a wonderful family of my own. I have a 13 year old son. Through Alabastron, I learned that although my life hasn’t followed the “conventional” linear path as expected by societal “norms”, all I need to do is to continue to walk my path and develop it. I learned it is not too late and neither is all lost.
As I journeyed on the Alabastron course, one of my greatest aha moments was distinguishing the difference between a strong woman and a woman of strength. For as long as I can remember, I took pride in being a strong woman and clung onto this identity as my badge of honour. Alabastron has helped me renew my mind and learn that I need to embrace being a woman of strength instead. Curious to know what that difference is, do what I did and enroll with Alabastron, believe me when I say, you will not regret it.
Alabastron has also taught and equipped me with tools that enable me to confidently and decidedly take charge of my own life and be concise and decisive about my thoughts and actions. I remain a work in progress, and that is exciting as I watch myself change.
Alabastron has also taught and equipped me with tools that enable me to confidently and decidedly take charge of my own life and be concise and decisive about my thoughts and actions In relation to past hurts, I learned that I wasn’t the villain in the relationship and neither did I deserve the outcome and most importantly I needed to stop blaming myself. Journeying through Alabastron’s Renewing Self Programme, I am learning to let go and forgive those who hurt me; and also forgive myself in the process.
Thank you Alabastron team for giving me a new perspective on life and direction. My toolkit is overflowing.
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