A Crown of Wholeness!!
Have you ever been caught up with the usual activities in your life? You know, getting up, bathing, getting dressed, preparing the children, and then showing up at work because you have to! Well, that was me doing life beaten up; sinking every moment yet constantly smiling telling myself everything is ok until I did Alabastron.
One normal morning, late last year after arriving at work, my boss who is also a friend mentioned Alabastron to me. God surely bless her soul!!
“I think you need Alabastron.” Trizah said.
I honestly did not hear her well, I heard something like Alabaster. I didn’t care!! Later on, I grew interest and searched for the organization on internet. I researched everything I could get a hold of. Social media, the website and even You Tube. I resolved to attend the Alabastron Open Day then broke the news to Trizah.
“By the way I attended the Open Day.” I mentioned swiftly.To my surprise, she sent me money for registration and even paid the full amount for me!! I had been going through a series of depression and emotional abuse. This showed up at my work. I would always say yes to everything and get an outburst. One day I stormed a manager’s office unaware I was angry, he request if I can do breathing exercises. Most of my close friends could easily tell I was not ok. But what hit me hard was a question from my six year old son Mum, are you ok? Do you have a problem?” He questioned me. I was negative in life such that I had an internal negative dialogue that made me miss opportunities right
“Mum, are you ok? Do you have a problem?” He questioned me.
I remember these words vividly. That day I had dressed them up school uniform instead of sportswear as it was a sports day. And, I had lost the house keys. That is the day I made a resolve to get Emily back from whatever was draining her! I decided I must get better!!
In 2017, I had gone for counseling whilst reading many books. All these things were to give me a solution to this problem. I was constantly on medication curing diseases that are nonexistent. WOW!! I was negative in life such that I had an internal negative dialogue that made me miss opportunities right below my nose at work. I would tell myself, “What do you know Emily, keep quiet and drag along, just watch.” OUCH!! Since I could not find the solution to my problem I became unresponsive and kept on saying, “I am ok!”
My highlight during the Renewing Self-program was forgiveness. I had a fresh understanding of forgiveness. I have learnt to unhook myself from the messy unforgiveness without making it at all about me but about God. I look more to God having realized that He even understands how I feel about issues of life. I am deeply in love the woman I have become. I am so self-aware. I have realized that my opinion does matter. Love has replaced hatred, bitterness and resentment.
I am deeply in love the woman I have become. I am so self-aware. I have realized that my opinion does matter; I have said “NO” to a manager. Did I say I do apply lotion with much care and concern, I don’t rush to finish but to make sure that my heart connects with my whole body. I no longer drag along but I carry myself with much confidence and dignity.
Also, I don’t look at women with judgmental eyes, every woman needs another woman, be it a CEO or a domestic manager. I judge myself neither. I honor all women in their beauty and strengths. Love has replaced hatred, bitterness and resentment. I have become so careful about how I treat my children the words I say, the actions I take, lest I burden I them in future.
This is the ONLY space where authenticity resides; real issues are dealt with in their rawness. It’s not a home of “don’t worry, it shall be well, you’ll get over it, such is life, maisha ni kuvumilia” no it’s not! So, come ladies just as you are, come unfixed, even if you feel fixed just come to Alabastron, it is an interaction with self, Join us for the FREE OPEN DAY!!