Issues??? Yes? No? Mhhh!!! A roller coaster of emotions...
How / when did you learn / hear about Alabastron?
I first heard about Alabastron from a friend of mine in June 2016. I had never heard of it through the television or online like most. I believe it was not my time, but when l was told about it, at that point in my life, l was ready to try anything to get unstuck.
How (who) many people had told you by the time you made up your mind to enroll?
I heard about Alabastron from my friend Faith (who has not done the program). I mentioned it to my mother who had been told so much about it by her friend Khadija who has gone through the program. She took the time to call me and encourage me to enrol.
Am also very grateful to my friend Sally for following up and pushing me to do this program, l would not have made it to class. I had a lot going on but l managed to put everything aside to be there.
What did they tell you about Alabastron?
Faith said that it helps women with problems learn how to deal. Hahahaha, she made it seem like it was a therapy for women with ‘issues’. And I HAD ISSUES
A place to equip and guide women on how to know what is important, how to handle challenges and every day experiences that come up. Khadija was very positive. She told me that it is a program that helps women learn about themselves and how to influence. A place to equip and guide women on how to know what is important, how to handle challenges and every day experiences that come up.
What did you think it was all about?
I thought it was a place where one learns how to deal with issues. By the way l was just looking for peace. I think I was entangled (learnt the value of this word in Alabastron) in a lot of things that did not make me a better person or add value to my life.
Why did you enroll finally? What specifically was happening in your life?
When l enrolled it was either this program works or fails. I had no plan B (okay plan B was to keep living with the ‘dead fish look’). I was at breaking point, a walking person following a routine but not really living. I enrolled in search of peace. My life was just ‘MATHOGOTHANIO’ (kikuyu word that best explains ‘mixed up’). I was at breaking point, a walking person following a routine but not really living. Zombie like really.
What had you done to try and sort yourself out?
I prayed and when nothing was answered l just stopped praying! Then l blamed God for all my problems and hid behind my job.
Someone once, she told me l lost myself and l was living peoples lives instead of mine. I never went back to see her.
What were you hoping for?
I was hoping to sort out my life, find the missing link that had made my life crumble. I was looking for love and peace.
- Did I find it in friend chitchats or counsel? No I did not
- Did I find it in prayer? No! And after going through Alabastron l know why.
You see, my relationship with God was not right (and nowhere in my wildest dreams would l expect this to be the core of my problems). I had put him aside after going to campus and slowly, I stopped experiencing His love and favor. I did things my way. Yes l went to church once in a while but l never acknowledged need for Him in my life.
Where are you at now?
My experience during the 2weeks was powerful. A roller coaster of emotions. The first week was tough!!! I wanted to run away at some point…!! But that was my turning point. Hahaha!
Right now, I can see. I can breath. I am living! I have this peace that l cannot explain. I feel like I am in control of MY life. I can choose what is important and what is not, l can influence, I can enjoy mySELF.
I am happy with the tools and I will keep self evaluating to ensure l keep on track in this process/journey. There will be NO self-sabotage.
What specifically has changed?
What has changed? I am happy. I am living life, not just being.
I make decisions that are healthy for me. I chose what is important and leave out what is not. I chose what to let into my heart and leave out baggage that will harm me.
It was amazing to discover my purpose (I did not know this could be done. I thought some had purpose and others were just escorting people in life. Now l know)
I found peace. I found myself. I learnt the importance of purpose, self worth and values. I have forgiven people who hurt me. And from this I created space for God. The core of my heart was filled with hurt, pain, anger, bitterness and resentment. I feel liberated. I have given God His space back in my life. And from this l see things from the right perspective. It’s like clearing a blocked nose, or seeing colors for the first time. I have put God first and now involve him when making decisions.
Discovering my body shape too. Tihihi (I am slowly changing my wardrobe to suit my body type and show my joy; you will understand this better when you’ve done the program).
What would you like to share with a woman who is going through the same things as you were?
Enroll for Alabastron. I am not marketing, I have gotten a clear view of how a woman is created by God and what I need to do to stay in control of my life and how to handle experiences (I do not want to use the word issues. An experience becomes an issue when handled wrongly). I found peace. I found myself. I learnt the importance of purpose, self worth and values.ENROLL FOR CLASS