I am at Peace Knowing That I am Not Perfect
Growing up we all had varying dreams. We hoped to achieve these dreams badly so that we would be significant. I am speaking about the dream of getting an excellent grade to get into a great high school, then get an outstanding grade to go to campus, afterwards get an amazing job which is followed by getting married and living happily ever after! The society dangled this carrot in our face for acceptance and approval. Predictably, just like a hungry helpless rabbit, we did everything we could to get the carrot. I tirelessly worked to please the society by ticking all these goals so that I could be perfect for the society yet I felt hate towards the same people and disgust towards myself. Alabastron made me connect with the peace that comes with knowing I am not perfect.
“I found peace,” my colleague assured me. I was bitter towards life and people in my life. I was drowning with the feelings of I am not Good Enough in my work, relationships and even school.
I hopped into the class blank, clueless, and unprepared. I was bitter towards life and people in my life. I was drowning with the feelings of I am not Good Enough in my work, relationships and even school. The after effects were evident in my performance.
Since I was a loner, I hid from everyone. Only in these moments, I felt disgusted by myself. I was hiding behind my religion and ‘being perfect’. I was miserable and dying on the inside. Nonetheless, no one seemed to understand what I was going through in my quiet places.
All this time, I knew without a doubt that I was broken. I did Alabastron to see if I will get what my colleague was speaking about but at the same time expected nothing. How confusing huh!
I love women I hated. I am genuine about my emotions towards others and myself. After Alabastron, WAAH!!! Words cannot express! I am on a journey I love. I love women I hated. A whole me, that is a shocking in itself! I now have a voice. I am genuine about my emotions towards others and myself. Also, guess what? I am kinder to myself! Wooow!! This means that I am at peace with knowing that I am not perfect. I am aware I am a work in progress, which for me means I am continuously improving
Surely, everything in my life has changed. I am no longer the victim of life. The anger and bitterness I had bottled in my life is now gone! I love that I am alive despite the fact that before I wished for my very own death a thousand times. Did I mention I love women? I now love women.
On this note, this is to any woman; don’t be barred from coming for this season because of time or money. Just COME! The classes are palatable because they are easy to understand. So sign up for Class!!ENROLL FOR CLASS WANT TO SPEAK TO SOMEONE? MORE TRANSFORMATION STORIES