I Am in Pursuit of a Limitless Life!!
What would you do if a relationship you had depended on for a decade ended? How would you deal with a situation that tests your limits? At Alabastron I faced myself and how I had been living life and now I am in pursuit of living a limitless life.
I had known about Alabastron years ago when my aunt did Renewing Self season 3. I was quite young then and didn't think much about it. Years later I mentioned it to a good friend of mine. She went ahead and did it. She would prompt me to take the program, but I always had an excuse not to. Deep in my heart, I knew I wanted to do it, but it took me awhile to make the step. I admired the peace Mwende had, and having hit rock bottom, I decided to give it a shot. Furthermore, Mwende believed it would help me and that's all it took. God bless her soul!!
Recently I was lost. I was battling an autoimmune condition (Fibromyalgia), and just ended a 10 year relationship. I felt like I was broken physically, mentally and emotionally and there wasn't anything I could do.
Recently I was lost. I was battling an autoimmune condition (Fibromyalgia), and just ended a 10 year relationship. I felt like I was broken physically, mentally and emotionally and there wasn't anything I could do. With my health deteriorating and my heart broken, I had lost all zeal for life and merely existed. Honestly, I was just SO TIRED!! Ouch!
I didn't care at all about anything. I would stay in bed in pain physically, but crying loads as I felt like such a failure. All my dreams and ambitions were somewhere. I couldn't even pin point where. I'd felt like so much of wanted to achieve by a certain age in my life. Yet, it was not the case! I lost loads of friends, stopped working and all I wanted was to be left alone. My drive for my businesses was gone. Looking back I felt wasted, like I gave so much love to others and was left dry.
To ease this pain, I'd resorted to books, personal development and motivational videos. I also saw a therapist and had attended church functions to try and fill the void I felt. Partying had also become therapeutic.
To ease this pain, I'd resorted to books, personal development and motivational videos. I also saw a therapist and had attended church functions to try and fill the void I felt. Partying had also become therapeutic. Most of these were a temporary fix. As now I can see I was dealing with the surface. Whenever anything drastic would happen, I'd go back to zero. So it felt like a vicious cycle. I'd get excited, affirmative and optimistic, but once life would happen, I would completely be thrown off.
All I longed for was peace. Inner peace. I was hungry for it. I was also in search of happiness and joy from either of the solutions I tried day in day out. My Alabastron journey, helped me do was in light of my health, I was able to attend all classes and withstand pain and fatigue. Battling insomnia for over 9 months, somewhere within the season, I began sleeping. Wooah!!
Aside from that, I have learnt how to love myself first before others. Of course, God comes First. But one thing I did in the past is I loved others before loving myself.
Aside from that, I have learnt how to love myself first before others. Of course, God comes First. But one thing I did in the past is I loved others before loving myself. Now, Ivy is a priority and I love the feeling combined with the understanding that God is my source. Yeey!!. This has given me so much peace and joy. I'm filling myself up to be able to pour out to others.
The awareness I have is incredible because I am able to see things with a new fresh set of eyes. I am able to identify things happening in my life and tackle them in a healthy manner. In the past, I was very reactive, and combative. My relationship with God has become deeper in the process, and it's such a beautiful feeling. I feel lighter, literally.
I have let go of so many things that weren't adding value to my life and were taking so much from me leaving me dry and empty. I now am getting to know myself more and falling in love with who I am based on who God says I am.
I have let go of so many things that weren't adding value to my life and were taking so much from me leaving me dry and empty. I now am getting to know myself more and falling in love with who I am based on who God says I am. I believe that this is a continuous journey as there's still a lot I've got to work on. My experience has been an interesting one. It sounds all rosy now but I went through the good, the bad...and the UGLY. YES. THE UGLY. It was eye opening for me to discover things that I wasn't aware of from my past. I learnt a lot about myself and this was amazing and eye opening.
To every woman in pursuit of a life that isn’t limited, I have found freedom and liberation in Alabastron. I believe Alabastron has peeled me like an onion, getting to my core, and has equipped me to blossom into a whole grown onion, one layer at a time. So, if you are in search of where to begin a life where you can break your limits. Search no further. Sign Up Here.
If you like Ivy, or resonate with Ivy’s story, even remotely. Alabastron is interested in your Brokenness, like Ivy we can find your inner peace Email. renewingelf@alabastron.org
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