I Made a Bold Shift That Saved My Life! I Am Now Alive and in Connection With Myself!
We all go through life waiting for bliss to happen to us. We tick these boxes hoping at the end of it all we will feel fulfilled, satisfied and contented. Yet, if we were to be brutally honest with ourselves; this projection of wanting to achieve such key needs that come from within with anything without is a myth! This is so as needs that arise internally can never be matched to things attained externally. A house, a spouse, a child cannot complete, define or even satisfy us. It is the continuous endeavor to keep on rediscovering , redefining and even reconnecting with ourselves that shifts everything. Naomi's story shows how this shift happened for her and how you as a woman can embrace such bold shifts in life. Indulge us.
I had achieved all the things that I had wanted in life, as per my goals at 30 years. Things such as spouse, kids, home. However, I still felt extremely frustrated. I no longer understood myself. Nothing was exciting me anymore. I had lost myself at some point in life. I did not know where I was and what was wrong with me. With time, I became very bitter with everyone. I blamed everyone for my lack of happiness. This emptiness led me to add lots of weight. I relied on food to meet a need within. I had become an emotional feeder.
Additionally, I became very withdrawn and could lock myself in my bedroom all day. I remember after my kids left for school and spouse left for work, I would sleep all day and munch packets of biscuits, chocolates, sodas, much sweetened tea all in one day.
My weight hit 113.7kilograms. I had bad migraines. My menses disappeared and I thought I had hit menopause. I became a loner. I visited all manners of doctors, from endocrinologists to psychiatrists, to counsellors to neurologists. I longed to be myself again! At my rock bottom, I was scavenging for anything to save myself from drowning in the sea of frustrations. My weight hit 113.7kilograms. I had bad migraines. My menses disappeared and I thought I had hit menopause. I became a loner. I visited all manners of doctors, from endocrinologists to psychiatrists, to counsellors to neurologists. I longed to be myself again! At my rock bottom, I was scavenging for anything to save myself from drowning in the sea of frustrations.
I wish to thank Gladys Mwangi, a participant in 2019, who introduced me to Alabastron . She truly followed up till I signed up for the program. It was during this journey that I began seeing light. It’s like scales fell off my eyes. I was able to see myself and find myself. I was able to embrace my imperfect self. Yes, you heard me correctly, I have come to learn I am not perfect This journey has rekindled a love for myself that I didn’t have before. I am learning that I need to teach people how to handle me in the presence of others. I am learning to continuously embrace forgiveness and get rid of all bitterness in my life. I have learned I can always, I repeat always reset and restart at any point in life.
These lessons have given me a voice. I am able to express myself and what I feel to my spouse and other people. I am no longer bitter with anyone. Including myself! Yeeeeah! This is because I was able to look critically into my life. I began ever since I was young to where I am . I have come to terms with issues stemming from my childhood. This is especially with my father. All this time, I thought the root cause was my spouse but it was actually my father. I have felt sorry that I did this to them while they didn’t deserve it. I am proactively focused on how I can grow. This has led me to join and embrace the discipline it requires for me to lose 25kgs. I want to boost my physical body esteem.
These lessons have given me a voice. I am able to express myself and what I feel to my spouse and other people. I am no longer bitter with anyone. Including myself! To top it all, I have began working on my consultancy firm! I am moving onto my next level by creating effective and efficient systems. I am more appreciative of myself. Infact, I am planning to go on a solo trip for my birthday. I am self motivated and extremely active in my life. Most of all, I have a renewed relationship with God. I am more intentional about my time of prayer.
I am also thankful to the Alabastron family for holding my hands when I was drowning in the deep seas of frustration, you guys actually saved my life. Hugs!! I would love to meet Coach Rahab and Coach Kaine in person. They have a special place in my heart. May the good Lord continue to bless you and may He meet you at your point of needs. To every woman who has ticked all these boxes but somehow feels lost and exhausted! Take a bold shift and sign up today.
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