The Bold Shift That Led Me to Embrace a Journey to Rebuild the Life I Desire
Has life ever made sense for so long yet in one instance everything you thought you knew works just doesn’t feel clear anymore? Have you gone through a moment in life that led you to question the lenses through which you viewed life from? Sometimes life has lessons only best learned when experienced, mine led me to a journey of BECOMING a woman I love.
I joined Alabastron at a time when I needed lots of answers in my life. I had been a diligent student, who had the perfect script for life: Get an education, a good job, a husband and children... and voila! perfect picturesque memories.
My rose-tinted lenses did not protect me from the ravages of the wounds I had hidden deep in the recesses of my soul over the years. And the peeps I was seeking in life had become like the search for the holy grail; in addition to losing touch with who I was and what I lived for.I came fully loaded, bursting to the seams, with baggage that I had progressively acquired in my few years of life. Rejections, broken relationships failed marriage, businesses, studies, unending legal battles and the list seemed endless. Yes, life had served me it's fair share of lemons; and someone owed me an explanation. Why didn't the script work? I came fully loaded, bursting to the seams, with baggage that I had progressively acquired in my few years of life. Rejections, broken relationships failed marriage, businesses, studies, unending legal battles and the list seemed endless. Yes, life had served me it's fair share of lemons; and someone owed me an explanation. Why didn't the script work? Did I miss some lines somewhere? Was life worth living? And the internal rumblings continued without ceasing.
My heavy load, I was ready to lay it on every door step and on every ear that would listen. It was in the midst of these emotional tirades, that one blessed morning in December 2019, I met a friend of a friend. She patiently listened to my story; and like a sure signpost, guided me to Alabastron promising I will find answers.
I immediately, I contacted Alabastron; and joined the Renewing Self program two months later. In my desperation, I longed for an instant cookie cutter answer to my situation. Boy, was I in for a rude shock! It was time to roll down the sleeves and get to work.
My first lesson in the words of Rumi was that ''Oh ye who cannot take a good rub, how would you ever become a polished gem?" And the rubbing off the dross begun: layer by layer, sometimes gently, sometimes hard as some of the dirt had embedded itself deep into my grains; sometimes in the heat, sometimes in the cooler section; sometimes laughing and others through the tears.
The RS program helped me see my nakedness; that in so many areas I was like a property without defined boundaries. The RS program helped me see my nakedness; that in so many areas I was like a property without defined boundaries. Consequently, trespassers had a free pass into every area of my life, turning it into an abandoned garbage dump where only the scavengers prowl
Although I have been raised in church, the convolution of my life boundaries had made me lose sight of the divine and the need to forgive, surrender and let go of the baggage to Him who heals the broken hearts, bandages their wounds and makes me whole. And the boundaries needed to be put up as a priority, a step at a till the whole lot is secured.
Having allowed myself to nurture my boundaries muscles and many other muscles in my life, these muscles have to be exercised to serve their intended purpose. Alabastron has equipped me with the tools that I need to dig deep into the foundation of my life and begin rebuilding the life I desire. I know, just as it took time to off load on the baggage, it will take me time for all benefits to come forth.
Nevertheless, like a ready soldier, I daily put on my armor, trudge on to my space on the wall, and get to work on myself. Truly, I am loving, more and more, the woman I am becoming. Do you long for answers in your life that seems to far to comprehend? Then you can begin your journey HERE.
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